Thursday was a backbend class, and usually I feel lighthearted afterward. I did this time as well, but it was very short-lived. By 10 a.m. I felt very heavy-hearted and it lasted the rest of the day. My arms and legs felt like they weighed a tonne.
Friday was a restorative class and much needed. The rest of the day and evening I felt great equanimity. Even after getting yelled at, at work, and then suffering a particularly bad commute on the way home.
Saturday, the practice was very intense. Strong inversions (headstand 2, handstand, arm balance). By the time we got to shoulderstand I was exhausted. So tired, in fact, that on the drive home I was almost falling asleep at red lights. At 8 a.m., I crawled back into bed for a 'nap' that lasted 2 hours.
Today was pranayama. I feel rejuvenated, centred, aware. Why can't I feel like this always? Why is this sense of well-being not at my beck and call? Is there a way to make it so?
For now, I will savour it as it comes.